When you are trying for 4 years, hoping, but you keep getting disappointment after disappointment. Feeling sad and hopeless, you try to forget about it and convince yourself that a role of being a parent is just something it is not meant to be. When you put all these aside and choosing a completely new direction, the pregnancy test showed a plus… Oh my, what??!
I must admit that Simon and I were completely shocked for about a month. After years of hoping we were now afraid to even be happy… But now, after 8 months, when the belly keeps getting bigger and bigger, our love towards the little pumpkin is rising as well. It is hard to believe you can have such strong love for someone you don’t even know yet. Being pregnant is such a powerful thing…
I never understood those feelings you get in pregnancy… talking with the baby and stroking the belly. Whenever I saw this I though it is a bit silly and sugar-coated…. But only to the moment, when I started to get the pregnant belly myself. I now know, that all my feelings and emotions were stuffed away to protect myself from another disappointment.
Don’t get me wrong, Simon and I have been together for 5 fantastic years and I am sometimes still amazed, how easy is being with someone, who has the same thoughts, goals and dreams in life. But to be totally honest, the little pumpkin, growing in me, makes everything even a little bit more magical.
Dear little one, we can hardly wait to finally meet you. We will definitely start a new and unforgettable adventure together. You are not even born yet, but you’ve already been putting big smiles on our faces and sparkles of joy into our eyes. Every move / kick you make, shows us how much we missed you… Thank you for finding us and choosing to travel part of our lives together…